i had a moment last night that made me feel so horrible, i'm surprised i didn't start crying.
so i've mentioned that the bean's first two teeth are coming in - you can actually SEE them now! they're so cute, and it's so funny when she smiles and you can see those little pearly whites peeking up through those gums.
anyway, the day i'd been dreading finally came - yesterday. well, i guess it was actually ONE of the days i'm dreading - when she starts crawling, walking, learns how to say "no," figures out that she doesn't need me to get shit done, etc.
she was nursing and those adorable little teeth clamped down on me so hard, i yelped. and the little shit CACKLED! haha! little booger. anyway, i pulled away as quickly as i could without losing...parts...and just said "no. no biting."
she just grinned that sweet little smile at me and we went on with our day.
but then later that evening, it was mealtime again and she bit down again - even harder than the first time. i didn't just yelp, i screamed. and she was so startled and scared, her little face crumpled up and she started crying.
and i felt like the biggest piece of shit that ever walked the face of the earth.
we continued with the nursing and she did it a couple more times, and when i yelped, she cried. i kept telling her "no. no biting. that hurts." i don't know how much you can reason with a 7.5-month-old, but i was sure trying. i hope it sinks in so i don't have to resort to pumping and giving her a bottle.
[still feeling like crap for making my baby cry]